CHAPTER XXVIII. A
TRIFLING RETROSPECT. [Now a "reader" speaks back to the narrator!]
[28.1]
"Bless my heart,"
cries my young, volatile reader, "I shall never have patience to get through
these volumes, there are so many ahs! and ohs! so much fainting, tears, and
distress, I am sick to death of the subject."
[28.2]
My dear, cheerful,
innocent girl [reader],
for innocent I will suppose you to be, or you would acutely feel the woes of
Charlotte, did conscience say, thus might it have been with me, had not
Providence interposed to snatch me from destruction: therefore, my lively,
innocent girl, I must request your patience: I am writing a tale of truth: I mean to
write it to the heart: but if perchance the heart is rendered impenetrable
by unbounded prosperity, or a continuance in vice, I expect not my tale to
please, nay, I even expect it will be thrown by with disgust.
[28.3]
But softly, gentle fair one; I pray you throw it not aside
till you have perused the whole; mayhap you may find something therein to repay
you for the trouble. Methinks I see a sarcastic smile sit on your
countenance.—"And what," cry you, "does the conceited author suppose we can
glean from these pages, if Charlotte is held up as an object of terror, to
prevent us from falling into guilty errors?
does not La Rue triumph in her shame, and
by adding art to guilt, obtain the affection of a worthy man, and rise to a
station where she is beheld with respect, and cheerfully received into all
companies. What then is the moral you would *inculcate? Would you wish us to
think that a deviation from virtue, if covered by art and hypocrisy, is not an
object of detestation, but on the contrary shall raise us to fame and honor?
while the hapless girl who falls a victim to her too great sensibility, shall be
loaded with ignominy and shame?" [*inculcate
= To endeavour to force (a thing) into or impress (it) on the mind of another by
emphatic admonition, or by persistent repetition; to urge on the mind, esp. as a
principle, an opinion, or a matter of belief]
[28.4]
No, my fair querist
[questioner],
I mean no such thing. Remember the endeavors of the wicked are often
suffered to prosper, that in the end their fall may be attended with more
bitterness of heart; while the cup of affliction is poured out for wise and
salutary ends, and they who are compelled to drain it even to the bitter dregs,
often find comfort at the bottom; the tear of penitence blots their offences
from the book of fate, and they rise from the heavy, painful trial, purified and
fit for a mansion in the kingdom of eternity.
[28.5]
Yes, my young friends, the tear of compassion shall fall
for the fate of
[28.6]
I have said her person was lovely; let us add that she was
surrounded by splendor and affluence, and he must know but little of the world
who can wonder, (however faulty such a woman's conduct,) at her being followed
by the men, and her company courted by the women: in short
Mrs. Crayton was the
universal favorite: she set the fashions, she was toasted by all the gentlemen,
and copied by all the ladies.
[28.7]
Colonel Crayton was
a domestic man. Could he be happy with such a woman? impossible! Remonstrance
[protest]
was vain: he might
as well have preached to the winds, as endeavor to persuade her from any action,
however ridiculous, on which she had set her mind: in short, after a little
ineffectual struggle, he gave up the attempt, and left her to follow the bent of
her own inclinations: what those were, I think the reader must have seen enough
of her character to form a just idea. Among the number who paid their devotions
at her shrine, she
[La Rue]
singled one, a young Ensign
[lieutenant]
of mean
[low]
birth, indifferent education, and weak intellects. How such a man came into
the army, we hardly know to account for, and how he afterwards rose to posts of
honor is likewise strange and wonderful. But fortune is blind, and so are those
too frequently who have the power of dispensing her favors: else why do we see
fools and knaves at the very top of the wheel, while patient merit sinks to the
extreme of the opposite abyss. But we may form a thousand conjectures on this
subject, and yet never hit on the right. Let us therefore endeavor to deserve
her smiles, and whether we succeed or not, we shall feel more innate
satisfaction, than thousands of those who bask in the sunshine of her favor
unworthily.
[28.8]
But to return to Mrs. Crayton: this young man, whom I shall
distinguish by the name of Corydon [a
classical Greek name for a pastoral lover, here used satirically], was the reigning favorite of her heart. He
escorted her to the play, danced with her at every ball, and when indisposition
prevented her going out, it was he alone who was permitted to cheer the gloomy
solitude to which she was obliged to confine herself. Did she ever think of poor
Charlotte?—if she did, my dear Miss, it was only to laugh at the poor girl's
want of spirit in consenting to be moped up in the country, while Montraville
was enjoying
all the pleasures of a gay,
dissipated city. When she heard of his marriage, she smiling said, so
there's an end of Madam Charlotte's hopes. I wonder who will take her now, or
what will become of the little affected prude?
[28.9]
But as you have led to the subject, I think we may as well
return to the
distressed
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