LITR 3731 Creative Writing 2006

MOVING ON

by Rosalinda Ortiz

You are looking at me and wondering who I am.

Am I a person you remember?

I know its been many years between us and you wonder if I ever existed.

Did you create all those memories in your imagination?

There was a time you claimed you would never love again.

You wrote,

          “My pain will never heal from the hurt you caused in me.

          A scar will always remain from the emptiness you left.

          I shed tears everyday because of the loneliness you bestowed on me.

          I could never love again due to the fact that I loved you, but you still left.”

Yet, here you are soothing a broken heart caused by another.

You had never believed that you could get on with life when I left.

And 9 years later you are looking forward to a tomorrow.

The only reason you are staring at me now is because you feel guilty.

Guilty of being happy again.

I never wanted to see you hurt the way you did when I left.

Believe me, I would have chosen to stay, if it was mine to make.

I, too, thought that we would always be in each other’s life.

I know when you talk about me, you catch yourself rethinking the memories because they don’t seem real.

I no longer seem real to you.

You feel you are speaking of a person that never existed.

They will never know me and you stop talking about me.

I just need you to know one thing…I don’t blame you.

I don’t blame you for moving on with your life.

I don’t blame you for making your future plans, even if you forget me.

I don’t blame you because you are happy again.

I just ask you to now put my picture away and don’t look back at yesterday.

You need to keep on living.

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