Travis
Kelly Nuts
and Bolts The tops of
the ash trees swayed in the afternoon wind, and the movement produced a sound
like waves crashing upon a distant shore. The
other sights and sounds of the park were blocked by the walls of the perceptual
tunnel I had created. The trees
were safe. So were the birds that
darted between them. Not like the
squirrels I knew were racing around the trunks.
They caused me all kinds of trouble. It dawned on
me that I had been staring at the trees for ten minutes, and the arranged
meeting time had come and gone. He
was late. Ross was always late.
Carefully, I lowered my eyes from the trees and looked down the path that
ran in front of my bench. Most
children were in school and the park was unusually desolate.
While this made things easier for me, it also made it possible for a
cursory glance to reveal that Ross was nowhere in sight.
I resigned myself to the delay and once again turned my attention to the
trees. Suddenly, I heard a voice
behind me. “So, how is it today?” the familiar voice inquired. A typical opener these days, it seemed. “Fine. Have a seat” I responded without taking my eyes off the
treetops. As he walked
around and sat down on the empty left portion of the bench, I slid my eyes from
the trees to him in the most quick and fluid motion possible.
I could not help but be amused by the contrast between the typical
park-dweller and Ross. He was,
after all, the incarnation of physical inactivity.
His skin was pale, his body was practically skeletal, and he wore a pair
of cheap sunglasses to protect his delicate eyes from the midday sun.
I supposed his health was the natural result of a lifetime of buying,
using, disassembling, modifying, breaking, and returning electronic equipment.
Ironically, it was his neurotic fascination with all things technological
that had drawn him out to the sunlit park - To me. “How has work been?” I asked, trying to delay the inevitable. “Boring, as
usual” Ross said with more than a hint of impatience in his voice.
Still, he couldn’t resist an opportunity to expound on his favorite
topic. “Some guy from downstairs
wants me to attach a 12” LCD to his PDA.”
He looked disgusted. “The
thing’s ancient. I can do the
work, but it’s still going to be slow when I’m done with it.”
Ross, the poster-boy for technological elitism.
He assumed everybody worried about their hardware as much as he did. While he was
talking, I noticed his eyes kept darting between the coarse, pebbled surface of
the path and my right shoulder. I
braced myself for what came next. “So you say it’s fine?” he tried to ask casually. “I heard you were having trouble with it a couple of days ago. Punched out a wall or something.” I wondered where he heard that. “Well, I wouldn’t say punched out” I sniffed indignantly. “More like dented.” “Can I have a look?” Ross blurted out, obviously unable to hold back any longer. “I guess
so.” I couldn’t delay it, so I
turned my body carefully to face Ross and watched my right arm extend straight
in front of me, palm up. “I don’t see any damage” He almost whispered in awe. “The alloy
is a bit stronger than drywall.” Ross
already knew that, but it seemed to impress him anyway.
I felt like I was reciting from the same book as the doctors.
The doctors who two months ago explained exactly how the arm would drive
me insane. Of course,
that’s not the way they had worded
it. They had swarmed into my
hospital room barely five minutes after I had regained consciousness and
immediately began analyzing the data on the computer next to my bed.
With fanatical fervor, the doctors were discussing gibberish being fed
from the arm to the computer via a single thick cable.
I wondered if they realized there was a person attached to their
mechanical creation. Just as I was
about to answer my own question, one of the white coats separated itself from
the rest and moved to the foot of my bed. A
face came into focus above it of a bald, middle-aged man wearing rectangular
spectacles which obscured his eyes with a white, reflected light. The other doctors seemed to hush as he began to speak. “How do you feel, Jared?” he asked absent-mindedly as he scribbled notes on his electronic notepad. “A bit woozy” I replied, noticing my voice sounded strained and small. “That’s to
be expected. You’ve been in
surgery for twelve hours. Making a
few thousand neural connections can take some time.
Especially…” He grinned “if it’s never been done before.”
This seemed to set the other doctors off again, and the noise in my room
increased. In my drugged
haze, I wondered how being the first bionic man would affect my day-to-day
existence. Maybe it wouldn’t make
any difference. After all, I led a
rather unexceptional life. I had
been placed on worker’s compensation following the accident, and there I had
stayed for nearly six months. If my
life had been boring before the accident, the tedium had become life-threatening
afterwards. I had found some
part-time work to make the days drag by, but the amputee job market was
surprisingly small. After my mind
had drifted for a while, I noticed the bald doctor had called one of the other
white coats over to the foot of the bed. This
doctor was a bit younger than the other, and both his hair and beard were
well-groomed. He was holding a
binder in front of him, and his eyes were wide with fascination as he turned to
look at me. “This is
Doctor Jenneson” introduced the bald doctor.
“He will help you learn how to control and maintain the arm. He was directly involved with its development, so if anybody
has the answers to your questions, it’s him.”
The bald doctor glanced at his watch impatiently and said, “Excuse me.
I need to check on some other patients.
I’ll be by with some medication in a couple of hours.”
He inclined his head slightly and hurried out of the room. Dr. Jenneson
sat down next to me and began to explain the basics of the arm.
What it was made of, how it operated, what its tolerances were – It
seemed to me he had practically built the thing himself.
After a while, he began discussing how to use the arm. “As you probably know” he began, “The arm responds to signals from the brain. In that respect, it is very much like a real arm. However, unlike a real arm, it responds to extremely concise thought patterns. In other words, rather than using vague wishes or desires, the arm picks up on definite imagery and concepts.” He peered intently at me, as if he could sense that I didn’t have the slightest idea what he was talking about. “Unfortunately”
he continued unabated, “the concepts that evoke certain brain patterns vary
from person to person. So…” he
tapped his binder with his right index finger, “we’ll have to discover them
ourselves.” Dr. Jenneson
opened the binder and, during the following hour, showed me hundreds of
seemingly unrelated pictures. Whenever
my viewing a picture produced a response from the arm, his brow would furrow and
he would jot something down. Similar
sessions were held several times a day over the next two weeks.
Soon, I was able to produce movements with the arm by viewing or thinking
about certain objects. For
instance, thinking about octopuses caused the hand to clench.
The more intensely I thought about an octopus, the harder it would
clench. Unfortunately, some of the responses were more dangerous than useful. For some reason, the faintest thought of a blue plastic yo-yo sent the arm bucking and shaking like a bull at a rodeo. I also had to avoid swordfish, since a glimpse of one would result in the arm shooting off in random directions with enough force to incapacitate a person. Neither Dr. Jenneson nor I could predict what would happen if I caught sight of a squirrel, but it was invariably something bad. Eventually, Dr. Jenneson decided that I had a reasonable amount of control over the arm. Before discharging me from the hospital, he constructed a schedule of monthly visits, probably to satisfy his fixation with the arm more than anything else.
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