LITR 3731: Creative Writing
Student Fiction Submission 2003

     Laurie Eckhart

The Baby Box

Chapter One

I parted the leaves of the red-tipped shrub and saw old Mrs. Anderson disappear behind her screen door for the third time.

“Hurry, hurry,” I muttered to myself. The coast was finally clear, it was now or never. I darted across the street, my attention focused on a Greyco baby carriage left neglected under stacks of rubbish. Tomorrow was big trash pick up day and Mrs. Anderson had been clearing her

“Hey, Ginny!” I missed a step and almost tripped when I heard Lena call from down the street. I threw my hand up, silently begging her to stop yelling at me. A few seconds later I was rummaging through the curb-side trash, trying to liberate the carriage. A box of musty Christmas ornaments threatened to expose me. I screwed my face up in an attempt to suppress an explosive sneeze. Frantic, I glanced up at the closed screen door.

From the corner of my eye, I saw Lena walking towards me. “Hurry” became a singsong mantra under my breath; if Lena reached me, she’d launch a full-scale investigation in full view of the Anderson house.

I became careless and a box of scratched Christmas ornaments fell open. Some of the glass globes shattered on the road, while others rolled in crazy directions.  Two Herculean pulls later the stroller was finally free, and I began hauling it across the street to my front yard. If I could just make it behind the shrubbery before Lena caught up with me I’d be safe.

“Ginny! What are you doing?” I tugged faster praying that Lena’s high-pitched voice wouldn’t carry to Mrs. Anderson or her nasty little dog, Rufus. The carriage cooperated all the way to the grassy ditch where one of the wheels caught on a crawfish mound. Too panicked to slow down when it threatened to tip over, I lost control and the buggy crashed sideways.

“Ginny, wait for me!” Lena yelled. I could tell she was jogging by the way her voice bounced. When I turned around to right the carriage I saw Mrs. Anderson pushing her ratty screen door open. The moment a six-inch crack appeared Rufus came bounding out like a miniaturized hound of hell.

The situation no longer merited a G-rated mantra. I began dragging the sideways buggy toward my front door at a stumbling run, no longer concerned with decorum.

I heard Mrs. Anderson screeching at her dog. “Rufus, come here baby. No, Rufus. No!” She stood in her doorway trying to call Rufus home, but he had already caught sigh of me and was determined to protect his mistresses’ precious trash. He cleared the ditch in a single leap. I knew if I could manage to get the carriage in my front door before Rufus reached me, I might go undetected.

“Crap, crap, crap, crap.” I sing-songed. Just when I thought I might pull it off, the wheels caught on the threshold and before I could free them Rufus took hold of the side and began tugging with his entire doggy might.

“Ginny!” Lena fought to catch her breath as she jogged into my yard, “what are you doing?”

“I’ll tell you later. Help me get rid of Rufus.”

“Uh-uh, Mrs. Anderson is walking over. I’m not touching her dog. You know how she is about him.”

I tried shaking the carriage to dislodge the little bugger, but he held tight and began a growling. He sounded like a broken garbage disposal. I glanced up and saw Mrs. Anderson crossing my ditch, making her way to me quicker than I thought possible.

“She’s gonna call the cops on you Ginny.”

“She can’t call the cops on someone for taking something out of the trash.” I tried to sound convinced, confident. Lena just shrugged and stepped back when Mrs. Anderson arrived. Mrs. Anderson stooped down and swept Rufus into her arms, as though I was the threat!

“Mrs. Ward I don’t know what you think you’re doing. I have half a mind to call the police and report this. What exactly do you have to say for yourself?

I looked at Lena for support, but she just glanced down at her shoes. Traitor.

I put on my best conciliatory face. “Mrs. Anderson, I didn’t think you’d mind since the carriage was in the trash and all…” I let my explanation fade away, hoping she’d be placated. Rufus glared at me with the same contempt as his owner. I was faced with complete silence.

“I just thought that, well, you know, that…”

“Yes, Mrs. Ward? What exactly did you think?”

“Well, I thought I could clean the carriage up and find someone who could use it. Instead of, you know, throwing it away.” I felt the prickly heat that causes my face and armpits to itch when I’m embarrassed. This wasn’t the first time I’d been accused of being a trash-picker. I consoled myself with the thought that I dig through trash in the interest of philanthropy, not subsistence.

“Are you accusing me of being a wastrel, Mrs. Ward? Do you think you can manage my business better than I can? I bought that carriage, I own that carriage, and I have the right to throw it away when I damn well please.”

The vehemence of the speech left me so surprised that I didn’t know how to respond. Everyone in the neighborhood knew she was cranky, but not mean.

“You have nothing to say for yourself do you Mrs. Ward? I want that returned to my curb where it belongs and I don’t ever want to see you on my property again. Do you understand?”

Oh, I understood all right. Despite my embarrassment I wasn’t going to let this old bag browbeat me. I might not live in the best of circumstances, but I’m not stupid.

“I understand you, Mrs. Anderson, but I’m not going to return the carriage. You can call the police, but don’t they say “possession is nine-tenths of the law?” The carriage is on my property now and, may I remind you, so are you.” Lena finally glanced up from her shoes. I hate confrontation of any flavor, and I wasn’t surprised to feel a fresh wave of itch in my neck and armpits.

“You people are all alike.” Mrs. Anderson’s head was nodding in a furious bobble.  “You take whatever you want from others, whenever you want it. You have no respect, not even for yourself. I knew something like this was bound to happen when I saw you and that husband of yours move in the neighborhood.” She didn’t give me a chance to respond. As quickly as she appeared, she turned and began walking home.

The full import of “you people” began to sink in. I realized that it didn’t matter whether she gave me a chance to respond or not. Nothing I ever said would matter. My circumstances spoke for me. I’m eighteen, married to a forty-seven year old addict, and poor; end of story for Mrs. Anderson.

A thousand tardy retorts echoed in my mind. I glanced back at the house that had seemed a haven only five minutes ago. The dejected lean and peeling blue paint said it all. The place was a dump. We really were the bad element in the neighborhood.  It’s common knowledge that all the long-time residents resent the ugly house at the corner and any wayfaring renter who pauses there.

“She’s an old bitch, Ginny. Don’t let her get you down.” I turned and looked at Lena. I saw her through eyes that felt to big and dry for their sockets.

“I’m sure she won’t call the cops on you. She’s full of it.” Lena didn’t get it. That was the furthest thing from my mind.

“Lena, what do you think when you see me…” I stopped and rephrased my question. “I mean, do you think I would do this if I didn’t live here?” I waved my hand in the general direction of the house.  Lena’s eyebrows pulled together.

“What do you mean?”

I turned away from her and tried again, “do you think I’d be the way I am if I didn’t live here? In this house. Do you think I’d still go dumpster diving and trash picking?

“I don’t know why you worry about crap like this. Of course you’d still be you even if you weren’t living here. I’m sure if you lived in a mansion you’d still be a trash-picker Ginny.” Lena’s laugh sounded off and uncomfortable to me.

I shook my head at her to never mind. I wasn’t sure if I didn’t understand her or she didn’t understand me. I felt positive that no matter where I lived I’d still look through dumpsters and curbside trash. I guess the difference in living arrangements would only really matter to other people. Living in a throwaway society is difficult when you’re poor; you start to feel disposable too. Too tired to think about it any more, I shrugged and asked Lena to help me wash the carriage.

Two weeks later I lay draped over the couch applying Elmer’s glue to my hands so I could peel it off. I couldn’t stop thinking about the confrontation with Mrs. Anderson and her snippy little dog. The more glue I peeled the madder I felt. I had the day off, but there was nothing to do. The electric bill hadn’t been paid so the house was hot and dark. The August humidity was enough to drive me crazy…crazier. Geary, my husband, was outside reading another Asimov paperback. That suited me just fine.

“Dante. Here kitty, kitty, kitty,” I called. I waited a full minute, but no Dante. It wasn’t like him to ignore my call. Curious, I began looking through the house for him. I found him curled up in the carriage, asleep. I wished I had a camera to take a picture.

“Hey, little guy. You find a comfy spot?” At the sound of my voice he perked his ears and opened sleep-slitted eyes. Sometimes Dante seems like the only normal thing in my world.  I perched on the edge of the bed and began slowly pushing the carriage back and forth. Dante settled back into sleep and I began to sing:

 

“Hush little kitty don’t you meow

Mommas gonna buy you some caaa-aat chow

If that cat chow don’t taste real nice

Mommas gonna buy you some furrr-ry mice

If those furry mice aren’t fun

Mommas gonna find you a patch in the sun

If that sun don’t want to shine

Mommas gonna--”

 

“Ginny! You in there?” Geary’s yell came from the next room. Dante’s eyes opened wide and his tail began a fast twitch.  I abruptly stopped rocking the carriage and pulled my hands back into my lap.

“Yeah, I’m in the bedroom. Whatcha want?” For just a moment I forgot about the heat, but Geary’s voice reminded me of our miserable conditions. The bedroom became oppressive, stifling.

“Do you know where my glucose tabs are? I can’t find them. I think my blood sugar’s low.” A too-quick intake of air caused me to cough. Geary’s blood sugar was always low. Or high. Or he was suffering chest pains. Or back pains. It explains the pain pills and muscle relaxers always present in the house.  I scrambled to give a response to keep him from coming in the bedroom.

“I think you left them in the truck. On the dash.” At least, I hoped so. If he found them he’d probably return to reading outside.

“Found ‘em,” he yelled. I looked up and thanked God, Allah and any other patron saint of Stupid Young Girls with Asshole Husbands.

Dante crawled out of the carriage; the moment we had before gone. I wished, just for a minute, that I had a real baby, something that could be legitimately dependant on me. After I made sure no one could hear me, I picked Dante up and babbled baby talk to him. I grew tired of baby talk and turned to more serious topics. Dante was heads and tails better than any locked diary, and I often spent hours confiding in him.

“You don’t care where we live do you furball? It’s all the same to you isn’t it? I wish people were like that.” Dante’s little body began a slow rumble, like the distant hum of summer insects.

“I wish Mrs. Anderson could really see me Dante. All she sees is Geary and this house.  I know I shouldn’t care about what she thinks, but I do. I can’t help it.” I buried my face in his sweet, musky fur and breathed in the only scent in the house worth sniffing. It doesn’t matter how many times I bathe, I never get the stench of this place off me. Dante’s fur seemed immune. It didn’t matter so much for him though, his kitty friends never judge him by the house he lives in or the way he smells. Well, the smell part isn’t exactly true, but close enough.

“Sorry furball,” I whispered as I set him on the bed and stood up. I couldn’t stand being in the house anymore. The heat and constant threat of Geary’s presence made it unbearable. I went to find my backpack and keys. Before I left I double checked the oven and unplugged the toaster.

I pushed out the front door as quietly as possible and crept over to my motorcycle. I didn’t want Geary to show up and ask me where I was going, I didn’t want to chance him inviting himself along.

I threw my leg over the seat and physically bullied the bike around so that as soon as I turned the ignition I could head out through the gently sloped ditch to the road. I wadded my hair up and shoved it into my helmet along with a sock. That was the best method I’d found to keep the ill-fitted helmet in place.

“Bye-bye,” I whispered as I turned the key and pushed the ignition button. I headed for the ditch and caught sight of Geary’s drab blue shirt from the corner of my eye. I lifted my left hand and waved a cheery goodbye and sped off down the road.

Immediately, I was able to breathe. An involuntary smile spread over my face as I pulled on the accelerator. To hell with the Mrs. Andersons of the world.

Chapter 2

I almost missed the tiny resale shop. It was set back from the road with a nearly invisible sign that quietly proclaimed it to be The Baby Box. My oldest brother and his wife were due to have a girl sometime in the next couple of weeks. I decided to turn around and check the shop out. I couldn’t afford a new gift. I couldn’t give them the used stroller because they had received an uber-expensive one at their baby shower last month. They lived in a nice neighborhood and ordered frozen food from the Schwan delivery truck. I should be so lucky. Someday I hope to have a nice husband and house with a big freezer in the garage for the Schwan man to fill up every month.

I felt a little self-conscious walking into the shop clutching my helmet, but I quashed it. Most people are relatively polite. The most intrusive thing they do is stare a little till their curiosity is appeased.

The bells over the door announced my arrival and a few patrons glanced my way. They all quietly returned to their shopping except for one little girl with shiny brown curls. I relaxed when I realized no one was going to question my right to be here. No one here knew I was married to a neutered geriatric.

“Hello” I startled at the voice. I turned to see a plump woman who vaguely resembled my mother.

“Hi,” I replied. I felt my facial muscles tense with the strain of maintaining a “normal look.”

“Can I help you find anything?” I was silent for a moment trying to decide what to say. Evidently, she wasn’t a quitter because she kept trying to draw me out.

“A particulate size maybe?”  This lady didn’t look like she had to strain to smile.

I racked my brain. A size, a size. I relaxed as I remembered that baby clothes are determined by age.

“A newborn,” I finally said.

“Oh, are you a new mother?” The question was simple. Theoretically.  No would have sufficed.

“Yes. A girl.”  Water from the Rubicon splashed me. My brothers would have said I was submersed in something else.

“Congratulations honey! We have a lot of newborn clothing.” She beamed at me like I’d won the Nobel Peace Prize. If only this lady knew. Not only am I childless; I’ve never even had sex with anyone that capable of causing the condition. Geary’s neutered and impotent to boot.

“Thanks” I replied feeling lame, and a little excited.

She turned and led me to the back of the fresh-smelling little store to show me the newborn racks. Some of the floor-boards creaked as we passed. She kept a running dialogue the whole time asking if I had any other children, what my husband did for a living, and so on. I kept my answers brief. I believed that was the best way to keep myself from tripping over too many lies. Oh what tangled webs we weave…

I’ve never been a girly-girl, but as I fondled the miniature dresses an unfamiliar want stabbed my core. I almost wished I were shopping for my own little girl, not another addition to my brother’s over-crowded menagerie. I chose a frilly pink dress, for shock value mostly. Mostly. As the black-sheep tom-boy of the family I exist under certain strictures, any time I ignore those rules and do the unexpected I’m guaranteed an amusing reaction from family members.  Buying a frilly pink dress was definitely beyond what my family considered a norm for me.

When I reached the front counter I had to wait for two patrons to complete their purchases. Normally, lines present prime opportunity for deep contemplation, but today I was curious about the shop owner, so I listened to the idle chatter between her and the two women. When my turn came I once again felt awkward, positive the kind lady could see liar blinking from my eyes.

“Thanks for your help,” I told her.

“Oh, no trouble at all. I love to meet and help new parents. You remind me of myself when I was a new mother.” I sincerely doubted that. I smiled at her, unsure of what to say next. I felt certain there was a special place in hell for people who lie to sweet little old ladies.

“How many kids do you have?” I asked, trying to cover up my unease.

“Three. Two are grown with families and the third is about to graduate from college. She went off the University of Arizona to study entomology. Can you imagine?”

“Entomology?” I made the word a question.

“Bugs, dear. She studies bugs. She wants to work with the agricultural extension.”

We made idle chatter, and I stuck to asking about her children because I figured it was a safe topic. She bagged my dress up and I stuffed it in my backpack for safekeeping.

“Now, you be safe on that thing. I don’t know why your husband allows you to ride it. You’re a mother now dear, you have more than just yourself to consider.” She sounded so concerned that I felt a queer ache in my stomach.

“It’s ok, I’ve been riding bikes for a long time.” Her concern didn’t seem patronizing and she didn’t offend me the way most people do when they say I shouldn’t ride. She wasn’t worried because I’m a girl, but because I’m a mother.

“Thanks again for your help Ms…,” my words trailed off as I realized I didn’t know her name.

“Oh, don’t call me Ms. anything, call me Abby. I hope to see you again soon.” I smiled and reassured her that she’d definitely see me again, all the while thinking how unlikely the possibility that I’d revisit the Baby Box really was.

“Thanks, Abby.”

“You bring a picture of that angel next time, you hear? I want to see that precious baby of yours.” Her kind remark refreshed the ache in my belly and I nodded my head in agreement. I ducked out the door before my conscious could compel me to admit to this kind woman that I had lied to her.

Chapter 3

The first of September found me slumped over the end of the bed in front of a half-functional window unit. I hadn’t given Bubba my present for his new daughter. In fact, she was already a week old and I hadn’t even seen her once. Her name was Megan.

The pink dress lay rumpled in the baby carriage where I tossed it weeks ago. Dante had taken to sleeping on it. I pulled it from under him and shook it out in a vain attempt to remove the brown fur that coated it. The more I thought about it the crummier I felt about giving my newborn niece used clothing. Bubba’s family didn’t shop resale. The absence of a tag wouldn’t go unnoticed, and I didn’t have the heart to put a fake one on the dress. With my luck they’d want to return it for a different color or something.

“Well, Fuzzbutt I guess we’ll just put it away for some po’folk baby shower.” I smiled as he stood up and stretched his sleek body. He picked his way over to me and began rubbing against the dress.

“Hmm, do I have a cross-dressing cat? Is there something you want to tell me Dante? Was it a mistake to have your package whacked off?” I laughed at my own joke and positioned Dante so I could pull the dress over his head. He wasn’t very enthusiastic about it, but he’s always been a forgiving kitty. As soon as I settled the dress over his body he went stiff-legged and fell over sideways. He refused to move while the dress was on him.

“Ok, so maybe you aren’t a cross-dresser. My mistake.” I pulled the dress off and he relaxed into my lap, my transgression against his feline manliness already forgotten.

I heard Rufus barking outside. Mrs. Anderson must be out putzing around in her garden. Ever since the incident with the carriage she refused to even make eye contact with me. Before, she at least waved when we both went to the mailbox at the same time. Lately, I’ve been peeking through the blinds, making certain she couldn’t see me, just to see if she ever looks over here. She doesn’t. It looks like she’s completely written me off. I’m not even an annoyance to her anymore.

“I wish she could just see me Dante. I’m a non-entity now.” I felt the irritating flush of tears in my eyes and became angry. I didn’t want to cry over her. “Why does she bother me so much? This sucks.”

I threw the dress in the corner and kicked at the carriage. When it bucked and tipped over the noise scared Dante. I immediately felt contrite. I slid off the bed to retrieve the dress and right the carriage. As I pulled the stroller upright I hesitated. I looked over at Dante, down at the dress clutched in my fist, and back to the carriage.  I felt a lopsided smile ruin the symmetry of my face. Mrs. Anderson was going to notice me; come tomorrow she was going to notice me a lot. 

 

ADDITIONAL FICTION

 

Chapter 4

 

 “Mrs. Anderson’s gonna look at us today. Oh, yes she is Dante. She’s gonna see us.” My singsong voice elicited no response from the stiff-legged cat. No purr. No meow. No twitch. He was frozen. I took one last swig of Pepsi, for courage, and gathered Dante in my arms.

“It’s a shame you’re so uncomfortable fuzzbutt, pink really brings out the natural highlights in your fur.” I gently laid the limp cat down in the baby buggy, and arranged a couple of pillows underneath him. I wanted to make sure he’d be prominently displayed above the rim of the carriage. I didn’t want to go to all this effort only to have him to sink to the bottom and go unnoticed.

“Here we go.” I said it aloud. Too loud. Geary was off working somewhere. He took work when his prescriptions needed refilling or the electricity was cut off. I was glad he wasn’t home. Hell, I was glad any day he wasn’t home.

I glanced out the window and saw Mrs. Anderson hauling more junk out of her garage. It was now or never. I pushed the door open with my hip and wrangled the Greyco and Dante, so cute in his pink dress, out into the bright sunlight. I was thankful that I’d have an air-conditioned house to come back to after this. The day was unseasonably warm, and I already had sweat trickling between my breasts and down my back from nerves.

I pushed the buggy through the ditch without incident and strolled across the road. Mrs. Anderson’s back was to me, so I took a moment to catch my breath. Just as the butterflies in my stomach started circling again she returned with another armload of junk for the curb.

“Good morning, Mrs. Anderson. How’re you?” I injected as much cheer into my voice as was possible. The lump in my throat choked me.

            “Do you need some help with that trash? I don’t mind lending a hand and Dante is as good as gold when he’s in his carriage. He won’t budge an inch.” Her gaping mouth was so unattractive that I made a mental note never to do it myself. I thought about telling her how unappealing she appeared, but thought better of it.

“Ginny Ward have you taken leave of your senses?”

            “No ma’am. It’s a nice day and Dante loves his walks. As a matter of fact I have to thank you for the carriage. Ever since you generously shared it with us Dante has been sleeping in it. And between you and me,” I lowered my voice, "he’s always been a fussy sleeper. I never dreamed that a better bed would help him. I think he feels more secure in it.” I smiled at her like she was some benevolent auntie.

            She began to glance around the neighborhood. Her eyes darted from one front porch to the next.

            “Here, would you like to hold Dante? He loves women.” I lifted Dante out of the folds of blanket and thrust him towards her. Mrs. Anderson’s eyes became impossibly wide when the frilly pink dress was revealed. Dante hung between us, his skinny legs and tail dangled limply. His brown head reflecting the sun’s rays.

            “Ginny Ward you get away from me.” She took a quick step back. “Take that cat with you. I ought to call the authorities on you. I'd do it too, but no one would believe me.” I pulled Dante to my bosom as though offended. I used one hand to cover his ears the way my mother used to cover mine at the sound of obscenity.

            “Mrs. Anderson that’s an awfully hateful way to talk. I hate to think that you talk that way around your grandchildren.”  The fleshy part of her neck began to quake, and she lifted her finger to point down the road.

            “Leave.” It was all she seemed capable of saying. I carefully arranged Dante in the carriage and turned back to Mrs. Anderson. I looked down at her burgeoning pile of trash and saw a large box of crayons.

            “Oh, you can’t throw these away.” I reached down and snatched the box up before she could react.

            “Dante’s just learning how to color. Of course, it’s harder for him than other children.” I leaned closer to her as though to share a secret, “he’s a special needs child.” I held up his paw as if to explain. “No opposable thumb.”

            “That’s it. Mrs. Ward, I’m calling the police. If you leave now I won’t charge you with trespassing.” I slowly looked down at the asphalt road at my feet.

            “That might be difficult to enforce since I’m not trespassing. We pay our taxes like everyone else. I have as much right to stand here as you do.”

            “You belong in a nut house, and your kind shouldn’t have half the rights you have. I won’t tolerate this disrespect.” I began to worry that I’d give her a stroke. Spittle flew from her lips every time she spoke and her face was flushed. I decided that we'd all had enough fun for one day.

            “Fine. You win. Personally, I like the idea of visiting a nice comfortable asylum paid for by your hard earned tax dollars. My air conditioner is broken and the welfare check won't come for another three weeks. So call away.” Feeling victorious, I turned and strolled down the street. Who cares if the cops come? It isn’t a crime to dress a cat in baby clothes.

            Over the next few weeks Mrs. Anderson did her best to ignore me. Dante and I took an evening stroll, religiously. Well, at least we did anytime Geary wasn’t home. I took satisfaction in the fact that no matter how horrified she was, she still couldn’t look away. I saw her peeking out from her window every night. I imagined she was poised with phone in hand ready to call the police.

             Lena told me the whole neighborhood was talking about me. I didn’t care whether or not they all thought I was crazy as a loon, what mattered most was that I wasn’t disappearing into nothingness.

            Of course, Geary was clueless. It figures since he’s the only person who made me wish I could be invisible. When he was home he buried his face in a science fiction novel and stayed tanked on prescription drugs. But, unfortunately, he was never buried deep enough that I felt truly free. It wasn’t long before I returned to The Baby Box for new outfits.

 

 

Bits of Feedback that I responded to:

 

Liz:

*The word "Greyco" distracted me.  I am not sure if the word serves well to really put forth a clear and specific image that people can relate to or if by using it you limit the image as opposed to the word stroller alone. Maybe the black stroller or baby blue or faded.  

*I am not familiar with the drugs listed here "Hydrocodone and Flexoril"  are they pain killers.  Could this be mentioned in some way?

 

These two comments from Liz made me pay attention to my assumptions about the reader’s experience. I thought back to other works that I’ve read, which assumed I was familiar with medicine/brand names and how confused I was. I realized that Greyco doesn’t really add that much to the description since there are a lot of different Greyco carriage. As for the drugs, the important detail is that the reader knows there are always prescription narcotics in the house, not the exact kind.

 

 

Liz:

* I kind of wanted to combine the sentences in the 3rd or 4th paragraph.  Starting with "I picked Dante up...  I wanted to know more about how she was feeling in the beginning of that action instead of at the end "after I made sure no one could hear me." [...] and then I thought maybe the sentences could be combined […]


*2nd to last paragraph maybe here instead of the second "I" sentence "I hate confrontation..."  You could combine them.  Hating confrontation of any flavor, I started to feel a fresh wave of itch..."  Then […] I guess what I am getting at is that at this point I begin to fall out of the action and maybe this linkage and present tense might help?

 

These comments made me realize the importance of sentence order. I rearranged several sentences to clue the reader into the protagonist’s feelings before the corresponding action. Why make them wait? I also realized the importance of combining two separate sentences with action that corresponds to the same event/emotion??? Not sure how to say that. There’s no point in having two sentences that start with the same pronoun and verb—I looked for these so I could combine them. They read much smoother.

 

 

Liz:

*Top of page:  I kind of get taken out of the action again when the character tells me how she feels awkward and unnatural.  Kind of a Ferris Buhler thing where he faces the camera and addresses the audience.  If you want that effect, that is what I get.  Or you could keep the reader in the action by showing this through her behavior.

I have a hard time not writing that way in first person. I looked at the places Liz pointed out and made a few changed, but I didn’t completely eliminate the effect. I kind of like it.

 

 

Liz:

*Maybe instead of her telling us she has never been a girly girl the reader could be reminded of this wonderful image of a tough biker girl holding the pink dress.

 

This surprised me because the main character isn’t a tough bike girl. The bike is incidental to her life; she doesn’t dress/talk/act like a stereotypical “biker chic”. She was a bit of a tom-boy from middle class rural life who was given a motorcycle as her only means of transportation. I haven’t changed much to reflect this because I’m still debating what works better.

 

Robin:

*Too bad you can’t make it longer so the next part of her dressing the cat up could be added.

 

I  added this scene to the additional fiction.